A Love Like Edward and Bella

I'm not one who gets completely wrapped up in movies. I'm smart enough to know that movies are not real, and that lighting, music, props and special effects make a movie so entertaining to watch. I like Twilight. I like to watch it and I like to read it, I've read the entire series twice, and want to read it again. What is it that makes it so compelling? I think it's the love, the complete and total giving of oneself to another human (or in this case vampire). The intense and total giving of your heart makes it so addictive to people. Every human being wants to feel a love like that, to give and to recieve a love like that. Does it exist in real life? Sometimes I believe it does. Sometimes I even feel it. The love for ones children is something like that, the desire to hand your heart over, the willingness to die for another's happiness. The love for one's friends as well can be overwhelming, although it's a different kind of love. The love for a spouse, the father / mother of your children, the one who knows you inside and out and takes the good with the not so good, and accepts you for all of it and loves you through it all. Every person deserves to feel like they are the sole purpose of another one to go on day by day. My goal in life is to become that person for someone. Maybe I am already, I hope so. There are times I see it, maybe it's just harder to see in yourself and in your own relationships then it is to see in other people. I have friends that I see it in, see people that are made to be together. It's like the sole purpose for being put on this earth is to be with that person. I have felt it in my own marriage, and with my children, and with my friends. Wouldn't life be grand if every day could feel like those days. If every day you knew that someone loved you so much that they felt they couldn't go on without you. I think the answer is that you need to let those people know, you need to make sure those people in your life know, every single day of their lives that they are that person for you, that every breath you take and every beat of your heart revolves around them. My vow today is to let those people in my life know that they mean the world to me. I'm so blessed to have people to share that with.

Just have to vent somewhere

Megan's team is undefeated in softball this year. They've played really good this year, and have earned every win. Their coach, also Brian's brother, has a rule, if you let three strikes go by without swinging you're on the bench for the rest of the game. Well, apparently he changed it to, you're on the bench for the entire next game. Whatever. Megan let three strikes go by tonight, three very very badly called strikes, they were a tad higher than ankle height on her, but all three were exactly the same and he called all three strikes. This was the end of the 3rd inning, they play 4 and we were ahead so we didn't have to play the end of the 4th. Anyway, she has to sit out the entire next tournament game because she didn't swing at three very bad pitches. Our pitcher is pretty good, but she likes it when Megan catches, she pitches better when Megan catches. I told Megan after the game that I wouldn't have, nor would any other player have swung at those pitches and she can't take it personally. It's a stupid rule, in my opinion, because most of the girls watch 2 strikes go by and swing at the next pitch regardless of how it looks because they're afraid to sit on the bench. It rewards the girls who swing at the ones that are 3 feet over their head. I've always thought it was a stupid rule. Not a damn thing I can do about it, but I needed to vent here before I called my brother in law and told him what an idiot he really is.

Swimming pictures

Got a little scary around here today

Actually, I'm rather bummed, I'm terrified of tornadoes, but I'd like to see one.......from a distance that is. Clouds got a little scary for a while, but nothing came from it. Sun is almost shining again. Planning to head to the pool later to fight the humidity!

I took the kids to the pool last Saturday with Jake's little friend Cort and of course Cort's mom Jennifer. Actually bought a family pass so we may be doing more of that this summer, the kids are getting old enough it's no longer impossible to take them all to the pool.

June 16

What a boring day. Brian and Kaleb are at the sale barn tonight and Jake is spending the night with Grandma Linda. I think I'm going to head up to the bar for their monthly girl's night out. I love having a kid old enough to stay home and babysit =) First I'm going to go for a run, but dang it's hot and humid today. Been waiting for the sun to go down, but now that I have plans I suppose it'd be smart to run before the drinking begins.

Started the C25K ( Couch to 5K) about a month ago. Trying to be a runner, I know, what the hell am I thinking! I love it though. Going into week 5, and I'm not dead yet!! Hopefully I'll get all the way through. I need the stress relief more than anything, well....no I guess I need the exercise more than anything :P I'm down about 15 lbs so far, and would like to go down another 15 but I don't know if it'll happen. The weight loss slows the closer I get to my goal.

Been down and grouchy lately, summertime blues I guess. Trying to decide if I want to get a job in the fall...one's been offered that I can pretty much work whatever hours I want. I also have the opportunity to babysit during the school year. A 3 year old, 20 month old, and a newborn in the mornings. I love the idea of staying home and making money, but I don't know if I want to go back to diapers and all that goes with it. It is only mornings though and I'd have all school holidays and summers off, which is a huge plus. Summers are so busy I really would love to have them off. And the babysitting option leaves a lot more time open for photography.

Lots to think about.

June 15, 2009

We went to KC today to go to Children's Mercy to recheck Hope's bald spot. He took her off of the medication pending the results of the culture they ran. As long as it's negative she just has to use Nizoral 3 times a week for another 6 months. Mostly to keep it from coming back. He was happy with the progress and the hair regrowth.

She of course was a total goofball all day. We went to Legends Mall for the first time, my mom and sister went along. I wish we would have had more time there, it was a lot of fun. We only got lost once on the way home, and I only got honked at twice, and I'm convinced it was because the drivers of the other vehicles thought us women in the van were cute. That's my story and I'm sticking to it!

The newest member of our family.

We welcomed Rosie, our new pony to the family last week. She's about 9 years old, and her owner wasn't riding her and got tired of feeding her so he gave her away. Can't beat a free horse!! We now have three members of the equine family on the farm, Skoal is a 3 year old we bought last year, Brian worked with him a lot last Summer but hasn't been on him much in the last few months. I'm sure that's going to come back to kick him in the butt. Lou is a 2 year old, we got her with her Mom, Lady. Unfortunately, Lady got sick and had to be put down when Lou was just a baby, so for now she's just around eating...well....like a horse.

Rosie has a bit of an attitude, the first day Kaleb got on bareback and she did great. The next, he thought he'd just hop right on, she had other ideas though, and that was the first time Kaleb's been bucked off. Thankfully, she's not very tall so he didn't have a long way to fall. My dad got on her and put her in her place, and she's been doing better. We did put a saddle on, which did not make her a happy pony, but it's a lot easier to hold on with a saddle. Kaleb does a really great job riding, it just comes naturally for him. He's not scared and when she starts getting antsy, he just makes sure she knows he's the boss and she usually calms down pretty fast. Jake's been on her once with Grandpa leading. Grandpa made her run a little and you could hear Jake giggling across the yard!

Hope's Kindergarten Graduation

Hope graduated from Kindergarten last month. I guess I have to call her a first grader now! She came a long way in a year, even her teacher couldnt' believe the difference from August until May. She has some pretty good friends, thankfully they'll be going to St. Michael's with her next year.

Megan started playing the clarinet this year, she's doing a really good job. I didn't let her start until second semester because I wanted to make sure her grades were going to be good before I let her take something else on. She really liked it, and never complained about practicing. Her band teacher said she'd love to work with her this summer, she can't believe how far she's come.
They got a new band / music teacher this year and the program was a million times better than usual. The music was good, they knew their songs, and they looked like they actually had fun!

Jake's First Tee-ball Game

Jake had his first tee ball game last week. He had a blast! He did however insist on wearing his Christmas long sleeved tee shirt to the game. Oh well, it was a battle I didn't choose to fight.

I'm sure you're bored with ball stories, but for now, it's my life......

Here's a few of Megan and Hope. Megan's team is still undefeated, although they had a close call Monday night. By that I mean they actually had to play the 4th inning, well the first half of the 4th inning anyway. Megan is still catching mostly. She's gotten a few decent hits, one or two pop flies that she lucked out on because the other team didn't catch, the others mostly line drives between third and short. Her dang legs are so long it looks like she's barely moving when she runs, hopefully she'll catch up with her legs someday and get a little speed.

Hope is just kind of there to be there, I stopped standing in the outfield with them because all I did was listen to Hope complain about being hot, or bored, or tired, or...whatever. She's hitting the ball a little better, and her throw has improved tremendously, but she still can't catch the ball in the glove to save her life. Motor skills have never been her strong suit, so I guess we'll just have to wait for coordination to come to her.

June is flying by

With ball games nearly every night of the week June doesn't seem to stick around very long. Kaleb's team is getting better, still definately one of the younger / less experienced teams in the league, but the last game was actually fairly close! Kaleb has still pitched every inning of every game, although I keep telling the coach, (also my husband) that he needs to take him out sometimes before he ruins his arm. However, there isn't another kid on the team who can even get the ball over the plate. He's doing a really good job pitching, he's got pretty good speed.